rambles, poems, braindroppings, and stories

recently i started running, not for competition or anything, but for my enjoyment. it's a time to be by myself and think, kind of like meditation or some shit-like-that. of course im gonna be competitive eventually, those mother-fuckers won't be expecting it too. Yep.

i want to know her so much better, but she isnt interested. shes nice about it, as nice as she can be, but the denial hurts like she was being mean about it. "just friends" these words are like a dagger to hear, and yet you have to accept them, because if you dont she will be gone forever.

capitalism doesn't care about its people at all. capitalism allows the world's biggest problems to grow like global-warming and the overpopulation of our world, while pretending to solve these problems with money. capitalism is the world's biggest religion promoting sacrifice of our minds and bodies for so-called progress.

my dad hangs out with his one friend more than i hang out with all of my friends, and it's not like my dad hangs out with his friend much, probably about 5 times a year. gonna chill with a friend who i know from freshman year of college and who was gonna room with me the following year, but decided to drop out instead. let's see how this goes...

a lot of life consists of waiting- complaining about the present moment and waiting for the fresh fruits of the future. always waiting for SOMETHING to happen as if anything will be much different from the moment you have right now.