rambles, poems, braindroppings, and stories

i have said this before. i want to start running. one of my favorite times to run is when it is rainy or cold outside. feeling stressed? take a run. i used to run for a sport, it was boring and lame. i do have trouble running consistently, but when i go on a run i feel relaxed, i can breathe freely, experience the outdoors, and most importantly it feels natural and easy. before when i ran for a sport it was forced and i didn't mentally have the guts, now when i run i feel strong mentally although i'm not always persistent enough.

you know what annoys me? i always want to knock it down.

we act as if we are conscious and above all other animals on earth. we are not conscious. all the time you hear people saying i wish i knew what i know now i would do things differently. well if you had a time machine and you could go back in time to change the mistakes it might not matter because some people believe the world will totally alter with one small change. scientists are very religious.

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