rambles, poems, braindroppings, and stories

  -dostoevsky

great song! better song?

Playing the game ain't always fun. Sometimes lying is all ya wanna do, feels so damn good. You lie and you're a coward, or you tell the truth and are vulnerable. Everyone makes it seem clear-cut but it ain't. It sounds real corny but doing the right thing is different for me than you. I just wanna have some fun tonight...

"Thirty white horses on a red hill, First they champ, Then they stamp, Then they stand still. Answer: Teeth on Chestnuts" - Bilbo

Everytime I use to hang out with her  I'd close my eyes and smile  Sprawl out and say: "I love that girl"  I was just a little school boy Afraid to shatter that one way move or the essence of my youth Take the brunt of reality Like a knock-out punch to the jaw. Not so long ago I ran into her, She lives with one of my friends now He loves her, and she loves him And part of me still that little school boy We talked all night about tattooes and the way we used to be The sun came up, and it was time for me to sleep Waved goodbye to them And went upstairs Just to lay my poor head down Just before i fell asleep, I saw the door open and it was her She had nostalgia chokes in her eyes She layed down next me And held me between her breasts And whispered into my ear: "I love you boy" I whispered back: "Oh I still love you too" I meant it, then she got up and left. I lay there, barely breathing, embracing the silence.

you gotta look the world in the eye and not give a fuck. im tired and smell like shit right now but i know tomorrows gonna be a good day because people are there for me; and i feel as if i can rule the world... the endings are the hardest. how do you say goodbye to people you have Lived and Grown with? "rocking out and having fun living like you just begun" it's weird how change can force you to think differently, if only those sad depressed people knew that there's better things out there and you don't have to crawl but can stand tall (and sometimes skip). "There was a time we had so little But we thought it was so much There was a time we had no control And we lost all touch So much emotion, so many days passed So many things we thought would last And everything it seemed so big So much invested in the past" on to new travels and more troubles. if only i could could cry and show how happy (and sad) i am right now but i must go onward, ...

Utah is fucking amazing. Our crew is the shit and our project is as well. BLM gave us two mountain bikes to use every day, and the trail has crazy scary jumps to ride. It's sunny and 60 degrees every day. The work ain't bad at all, we are making a fence to protect the bearclaw poppy which only grows in this area. Everyone thinks that I'm on vacation but in reality it's like a really good prison term.

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