rambles, poems, braindroppings, and stories

got no worries just broke as fuck but hey i got time and a hot shower and a smart girl to keep me company got my life ahead of me im young as fuck and chillin like a villain yeah life aint that bad when you got luck on your side

that feeling you get before you first kiss her that feeling you get in your stomach before your date with her shes got all the answers and there aint no more running im just a little boy and i need a lot caring her touch so gentle all the pain drips away and you forget it all theres nothing like it you are the king of the world because you are the luckiest man in the world to be with this amazing girl she gives you all her love and you cant believe your eyes her smile is contagious you thought oh i will never love again never never again you swore by it and looky looky here you are back in the face of it all because why not theres always the chance it could all work out

all human beings are your family but that is easier said than done after a year without seeing my family and living with many other families i have begun to realize that my family in particular is special i used to take these small things for granted i wanted to run away and explore and yes i have done so and yet all i wanna do is drink some hot tea with my brothers and enjoy food and laugh i would fight a lot with my parents and now i dont mind my mothers nagging and my fathers laziness these qualities seem warm and comforting many families have taken me in their homes and given me so much but still i feel an emptiness they dont understand me i am a little crazy for sure and not the easiest person to live with which makes me think of how amazingly awesome my family is no gossip no loud music past twelve am and my brothers dont show me pictures of a seventeen year olds breasts and ass and brags about it i have privacy as well and can be an individual yes each member of my family is wit...

although the future of colombia does seem bleak at times because of how the environment is getting destroyed i do think that the middle class is growing and getting stronger the people are very proud of their country which i cannot say the same for the united states obviously the people question their governmnet here but at the same time the people are very patriotic as in they believe their country is special and they are eager to be respected in the world

there is a large influence of the united states here in colombia and i am sad to say that it is not a good influence there are many malls here and the owns are very rich they steal from the common people as well there is a  lot of mining and drilling of oil and i suspect that many companies from the united states are buying these resources at a low price meanwhile a few colombians are making lots of money of course there is a culture in colombia and corruption but much of this corruption is manifested from the money of united states so it upsets me when i hear my fellow gringo friends question why is colombia so poor they have oil gold emeralds capitalism has gone global and countries like colombia are almost like states from usa not only has usa stolen the resources but they have helped to destroy the beautiful rivers mountains and beaches in colombia

ive been living in bogota colombia for about a week now in central bogota and wow it is different than what i am used to in colombia the dity city and rough edges crime and more corrupt police it is without a doubt dangerous the people are more legit they are more real less lies more brutal honesty i understand the people more how they talk and their intentions i think the cold and heat affect peoples personality i am finally free to walk the streets during the day without being bothered because i am a gringo yes the people obviously know i am a gringo as well but they dont make a big deal about it i have my own space and i can relax although i would never live here for an extended period because there is traffic everywhere and many people are paranoid of getting robbed ive never seen a city change so much from the day to the night the streets are empty and lonely only there are bad people roaming the streets looking for opportunity  and cops sometimes doing their job but most of t...

ive been starting to use this app on my phone called palfish to make some extra cash meanwhile im in colombia and all i gotta do is talk english on my phone and i they pay me in us dollars it is super weird talking to random people from china that you dont know this universal world we are living in

i grew up with the internet i remember using aol to log onto the web it was a dial up it took a lot of time to load we used to use aim everyone would make away messages and your could choose your own username everyone would compete on who was cooler and then came cell phones it was just a phone at that time there were a couple of games and there were ringtones too after came text messages you used to have to pay per each text message after came plans to pay for texts meanwhile computers got faster and now there was dsl and cable internet i remember the first iphone i think it came out when i was in college

life is some special shit every life unique and different always changing or perhaps never changing some sad some pissed off i met many people along the way and feel lucky i dont why but i like to fight let the fire out of me i see a situation that looks dangerous and then i make the jump anyway reflection and peace always moving and getting bored i wish to be a better person and i hope that my friends challenge me more than i can challenge myself "some of us were built to roam" sometimes you get the feeling that you gotta be a better person like you havent done enough looking the other way life is too short and real to let it slip through your fingers it is a beautiful ride and i dont want it to end maybe it will all be okay just put on your dancing shoes and close your eyes "quit your job get drunk in a parking lot" everyone looking for their something and somewhere to rest your smelly feet "we said all goodbyes the night before love was in your eye...

in the cities of south america there are little holes of gringos in sections of the cities and in the hostels there are many europeans and americans and other nationalities as well but it seems to me that everyone speaks english it is an honor to see how important my language is in the world and to see so many different people using it

for once in my life i will be making some actual fucking money for so long i was scared scared of what? scared of sucess i cannot wait to have the freedom of having cash to move to where i want i am from the united states and i am lucky

let her go wild enjoy her freedom she will love you forever moments pass and come i remember one time i was fighting with an ex colombiana i was so angry and frustrasted she wasnt putting out and i couldnt take it anymore she was talking so fast in spanish but i managed to samething in spanish back and added ahh mi espanol est mejorando she laughed and said muy tonto

i still find it funny how my colombian students dont know that i understand a lot of spanish. They are so naive!!!!! i sometimes forget that they are children.

i gotta say it has been a fuckin aadventure learning how to drive a cluth moto in colombia. i have fallen so many times i have lost cou7nt. the traffic is a fuckin pain in my ass. the buses cut yoiu off every chance they have, no one uses blinkers or follows the rules like stoppinge at red lights. ironically my united states licence is only to drive cars. during semana santa i drove from bogota until a town in Santander (8 hours) and then to medellin (8 hours) back to villavo (10 hours).

i dont know why but everyone in colombia has these small annoying dogs, they are everywhere, and they are very angry. sometimes when i am driving my moto they run after me barking. the weird thing the families love them. they drive with them on their moto and all. honestly the dogs are pretty much a part of the family.

some cultural differences that have been a little challenging for me while living in colombia: keep in mind there is no right or wrong way to live. these are challenges i have faced, but this does not mean that my way (USA) is better than the cultural norms in colombia. one of the biggest challenges has been colombian time. now that i have lived here for over a year i will never leave my house until my colombian friends have actually arrived to where we are supposed to meet, because too many times i have arrived too early or my colombian friends simply don't show up to meet me. another challenge has been gossip. in new jersey the people are very direct and brutally honest. in villavo, colombia there is a lot of gossip. here the people are super nice, but sometimes the people like to talk about you behind your back. it's normal here. while where I'm from this is a very bad thing to do, you say something to someone's face. ironically is bad to call someone ch...

all i want to do is sleep, eat, travel, and share my time with a beautiful girl. it seems so simple, but it's not, in usa everything is complicated. although you make more money and you spend more money as well. people are more passive, in their own little world. never had i thought of having children before i came to colombia. why would i want all that responsibility and work, i thought. after over a year of living in colombia my perspective has changed significantly. it happened slowly. everyone would ask me "tienes hijos"? laughing i would reply "claro que no." how much i have changed. i still do not believe my life, i feel seperated from my experience like something special has happened to me, so lucky and blessed to be in colombia. i can list all the things i love about colombia, but i wont. why put it into words? maybe i cant help the path i am going down, it is what it is, all i have to walk down the road and enjoy the ride. when life is hard you have to...