rambles, poems, braindroppings, and stories

ahhhh the new year is coming, a chance for fresh shit, the world continues to surprise me with how much shittier it can get, ahhhh so many mysteries. i want to thank everyone, friends and family, for making this year a truly great one for me. the world is a little depressing these days, but my life is full of adventures and excitement. i feel lucky to be alive :)

I'm looking at trains from New York City to San Diego and they are only about 300 dollars one way. It takes about 3 days to get to California on train, all I need is 600 bucks for the transportation and 300 dollars for a week of chillin in San Diego, in total that's only 900 dollars for a 2 week trip across beautiful USA.  Fuck Yeah! :) The train from Chicago to Los Angeles looks dope! https://www.amtrak.com/southwest-chief-train

it's all talk, maybe some philosophy will help to ease the mind, nothing makes much sense, all the writing in the world can't add enough meaning to this complicated web of feelings, help me and lend me your hand, come and tell me a secret, im lost and i know you are too, i dont know what else there is in this world other than each other, your eyes are a mirror to judge myself, keep on truckin', everything smells of bullshit in the end but maybe you can clear my mind, finally i feel that i can look the darkness in the eyes and not be scared. what else can i hope for? just you and me.

I have always been lucky in my life and when I was born in Long Branch New Jersey it was no exception. I had to have open lung surgery and my lungs almost collapsed, I was lucky to live. As a young boy I was wild and always drifting through life with ease; I was a track star in high school, always had lots of friends, and was a good student. But as I grew older I forgot about my dreams and desires, with little thought I choose Accounting as my major and realized this mistake too late. After college I had over 50,000 dollars in debt which I had to pay back, it took me 3 years of hard work and determination but I paid every cent back. Now I wanted to go on an adventure and enjoy life, I signed up for a program in California for 3 months to travel and work in different national parks there. This experience opened my eyes to how life could be challenging and fun at the same time. Finally I wanted to continue this way of life, I looked for a job where I could experience a new culture and l...

Before I left on my trip everyone told me I was crazy to go to Colombia, why go to a foreign country to volunteer when you can stay in the United States and get a good job. I admit I was a little nervous, I had done little research before going to Colombia and I decided only 2 months before the start date. My parents were not exactly thrilled with the idea but they couldn't do anything to stop me. So I left the United States in the beginning of March to embark on my adventure. On my first day in Villiavicencio I went to my school and was immediately introduced to teachers and students. In class the students had many questions for me like do you have a girlfriend and do you think Colombian women or American women are more beautiful, at first these questions seemed a little strange to me but now they make a lot of sense. Although the students can be a little lazy and they like to cheat at times, they have all respected me and treated me as their own. I feel that I have ma...

i feel lucky to be where i am today. it is crazy to think of the depth there is in life and how everything can change at a flip of the coin. as i write this is feel like a dumbass. it sounds like some bullshit poem. but i dont know, i feel good, and that is all i care about. i wish i could feel like this forever. i hope the best for everyone else. and maybe this is only the beginning for me, i never knew life could be so cool. but here i am at another crossroad. who knows where it will take me? “It is said that your life flashes before your eyes just before you die. That is true, it's called Life.” ― Terry Pratchett , The Last Continent

Snorlax : are you nervous about your recent pursuit to become a Pokemon Master? Me : well i am nervous and excited to go to another country and teach English there, feels odd the responsibility that I have, I mean I have a degree in Accounting and no teaching experience, kinda awesome but terrifying at the same time. Snorlax : I see. You know the phrase "you gotta catch them all" do you think you can achieve this goal? Me : I am going to travel as much as possible. I have 9 months to explore and adventure. Colombia is a tropical country of incredible diversity and charm. Its ever-changing geography, a history loaded with mystery and adventure, its people and cultures, have fascinated the world for centuries Snorlax : Truly fascinating answers. Thank you for your time young man.

Edgar Allan Poe drinks his coffee, the coffee makes him sober and able to perceive the world clearly through the senses, it makes him see the world in a way 'nobody ever should' in all its harsh reality, Poe considers how alcohol would dull this reality out and help him stop perceiving the world this way. A Green Day song plays in the background "Do you ever think back to another time? Does it bring you so down that you thought you lost your mind? Do you ever want to lead a long trail of destruction And mow down any bullshit that confronts you ? Do you ever build up all the small things in your head To make one problem that adds up to nothing?"

the time machine was shittier than Snorlax imagined, it was a Porta Potty and smelled like it had never been cleaned. i kicked the shit box and it beamed us through time and space into a similar world that also has Pokemon on it except the Pokemon here spoke bad Spanish, and by bad Spanish i mean it resembled gibberish more than a language. "donde esta el bano?" a charmander asks, "i have no idea what this foreigner is saying" Snorlax pushes me away. suddenly the world starts shaking and there's a loud voice yelling...

i was walking the other day as usual when im kinda lonely and i hear someone crying. it was this big guy that kinda looked like an overweight skunk that smoked way too much bud. i asked him "what's wrong buddy someone stole your stash"? he looked at me with rage "why am i on this earth"? i tell him some existential bullshit that only a true delusional drunkard would believe. he finally stops crying and offers me some ice-cream cake, i would have preferred an apple pie but i have a rule that i don't say NO to free food. he told me about this asshole pokemon trainer named Ash who had gotten into a barfight with Snorlax and called him a lazy hippie. "i guess i see his point you are currently eating cake and smoking a bong that's pretty irresponsible man." so i tell my new friend Snorlax that I have a shit time machine that sometimes works if i kick it enough times , let's go kick this kid's ass. on next week's episode tony the tiger...

life has so many downs and highs it can be exhausting and exciting so many people sit by passively and watch other people Living and then wonder what they are doing wrong. wrong? what the fuck does that mean? it's whatever the fuck you want it to mean. do what you want and fuck anyone that says you are wrong. been kinda positive lately so i thought it'd be cool to have some fun cynical lyrics. "I know what it looks like, the ship’s not capsizing. The driver’s just drunk or asleep at the wheel. The map is illegible, we spilled beers all over it. We’re all piss poor heroes, we’re aching to drown in a sea of bad metaphors: trite, overused. Well, I’m sorry I guess talking just gets me confused. And as a result, conversations don’t start, they sputter and stammer. They spiral like shit trying to go down the drain but keeps spinning ‘cause forces are making it stay and I don’t wanna talk ‘cause you don’t understand. This wasn’t for anyone, I just wanted something that wasn’t...

when at that concert jamming out dancing without care hypnotized free from memories and problems drunk on music but no hangover only reality and emotion pure natural childlike fun play fly away i wanna experience the world take what is mine and run away because i can and will do what i want so close where are you come here you know you want-to desire and heart-racing pleasing understanding knowledge feel the electricity dangerous but fun where ever i go the beat is here i told you so dance with me and ill take you around for a ride it never stops rhythmatic rocking and drumming ever so let's go away to this place far away you and me me and you you know you want to The best eggplant parm ever. This is what Love looks like. "urgent need to belong when everyone goes on without you journey to the end" she looks but i pretend to not notice. it's hard to admit that you are weak without her. i feel fake and lost, nothing makes se...

http://digitalcollections.nypl.org/  also kinda like this simple album   Lost Kids by J.T. Makoviecki

when i cant fall asleep i think about how im this passive selfish asshole who hides behind dark mysterious walls and lies, and the times i could have been a good guy but i took the cowards rout instead. i dont know why i have these odd thoughts, these human thoughts of the unknown.

GeoGuessr is a web-based geographic discovery game designed by Anton Wallén, a Swedish IT consultant, released on 9 May 2013. The game uses a semi-randomized Google Street View location and requires players to guess their location in the world using only the clues visible  https://geoguessr.com/