rambles, poems, braindroppings, and stories

Everything gets blurred, what I thought was right changed because of her. It hasn't been much time but I have fallen for her. Maybe she is stronger than me or maybe I have more trust. It hurts when there is confusion but it isn't a concern of mine. I know the challenges of life because I have felt the wickedness of being unlucky in the past. Today is a new day and I want everything to be all right, I know this is an illusion at times but who cares? I think some people get jealous and don't want us to fly away because they don't feel the same way. I cant change the world but I can change my own life and for me that is enough forever... I don't think that I am immature at all. Sometimes I put a cover to hide my true feelings. I just want you to realize the pain and work I have put into this relationship of ours. You have given me so much, someone to talk about my problems with and someone to challenge my beliefs. To me this is important, I like that you are complex...

Thrift stores, the beach, camp fires, tea, all the pretty girls, the feeling of the night, bike rides, the way smoke drifts away, crazy summer storms, abandoned houses, old cars, climbing trees, strangers, big waves, trains, the sound of crickets, the smell of an old book, falling asleep with a girl, snow that cancels school, mangos, leftovers, candles, driving fast, finding money in an old coat, a shared secret, a windy autumn day, coming home after a hard run, driving downhill on a moto, singing without care for how you sound, snow on your tongue, getting lost in a national park, 15 hour bus rides, walking to work, baking cookies for family, caring for someone who is special to you, trying to stay up late and then falling asleep at 10pm, the way leaves dance in the wind, sand on your feet, spooning someone on a cold night, the first kiss, staying overnight at the airport and drinking lots of coffee, making changes in your life, meeting new friends, to be vulnerable, finally finis...